Today was a good day. So much substance.
By that I mean, I had a lot of time to think, to assess my life and my priorities, and to read about faith and God and love.
This was one of those days where even though I didn't hang out with anyone, I felt grateful for the friends and family I've been given.
While cleaning my room and bathroom I just kind of talked to God about everything I could possibly think of. I don't know whether to call it prayer or ranting or a conversation or what. But for this purpose I'll call it prayer. God's probably the only one who would want to hear all the craziness that goes on in my mind (because it's endless and complicated).
I thought a lot about the books I've been reading lately and how they make me check myself (before I wreck myself [ha]). But really... These books are exactly what I need this summer to work on growing and evolving and becoming a better person.
For instance, Jason gave me a book a few months ago that has been helping me learn how to love people like Jesus loved people. It's called
Love Walked Among Us
What I like most about it is how much it shakes me out of my comfort zone. It's so easy to just look out for myself and my needs. It's much safer to do only that as well. But is it really the kind of life I've committed myself to when I first called myself a Christian? If I'm honest, then no.
Being a Christian (an honest, serious one) isn't easy. It's a life of self-sacrafice and self-giving love. The whole point is that we are supposed to be Christ's hands and feet in this world, healing the hurting and restoring the broken. When I read this book, it makes me ask myself, am I loving like Jesus did? Am I living a life of selfless love?
Not always... But I'm trying. And I'll continue to try and grow in this area.
The other book I'm reading is so insightful (but CS Lewis always is). It's called
The Four Loves 
This one is an amazing exploration of the nature of love. But it's different from the other one because it breaks down human love into Affection, Friendship, Eros (erotic love), and Charity and then expounds upon each one. This book just completely tickles my fancy. I love this kind of stuff. I find myself shaking my head in agreement and reaching for my blue highlighter every other page. CS Lewis has such a way of analyzing things and then putting his observations into exquisitely worded literature. I can't get enough of his writing.
Overall, days like these remind me of whats important and just help me organize (everything from my thoughts to my room).
I'm thankful for these days :)
